"The paradoxes of time and space and egoity and Reality Itself confound all speech and all accounting and all knowledge, all self images, all mummers."
Adi Da Samraj - 2005

"The ultimate end of ...the search for Truth, is the confounding of the need to know. All knowledge is a reaction to the threat of experience, but the need for absolute certainties, or fixed conditions, within or without, is undermined and vanished in the mindless Humor of the Heart. When perplexity is inherent and overwhelming, the inner stresses all dissolve, and uncaused Wisdom Shines. When despair and hope are equally impossible, frustration yields to Life".
The Enlightenment of the Whole Body - Adi Da Samraj

Our Unfortunate Dilemma (or Confrontation)
in the Realization of Ignorance

"Ignorance is not our misfortune. It is our Nature!"
The Star above the Title


Listen to Bubba Free John (Adi Da) respond to a students question about paradox and confusion - 1975


Philosophers, Pandits, Fools and Just Plain Idiots

Lately I've been reading some materials on the Internet that discuss Adi Da Samraj and some of his outlandish behaviors. Many of these discussions (if I can be so generous) center around the questions of Adi Da's sanity and authenticity of realization. There seems to be an inconsistency in Adi Da's questionable ethical behaviors that date back to 1974.

In spiritual life, particularly in the east, the problem of ethics and questionable behavior from a Guru have long been a question of legitimacy. In one of the more accepted books in the west that have some credibility in discussing even the possibility of having a 'Spiritual Teacher', Greg Bogart in the introduction to his book, The Nine States of Spiritual Apprenticeship states:

"I use the term spiritual apprenticeship deliberately to counterbalance what I perceive as the heaviness implicit in the word discipleship. Disciple implies a master, a concept that often creates mistrust in Americans, who have been bred on a tradition of autonomy and freedom from bondage to masters of any kind. I don’t believe the notion of masters and servants is intrinsic to the process of spiritual training; this is only one way of framing the power relations that emerge on this path. Yet it’s a conception that leads to two related problems: exaggerated attempts at surrender, sometimes leading to loss of will and autonomy; and the need to angrily repudiate a figure to whom one may have given too much power in the first place."

Here lies the heart of the problem, the Master/Disciple relationship and it's intrinsic mistrust in the western psyche. Not only is there an inherent mistrust in the psyche of many, not only in the west, but many examples of 'masters' who have not only mistreated, mislead and deluded many disciples and students but in extreme case lead them to the 'promised land' by having them kill themselves! CAUTION MADMAN & MADWOMEN AT WORK!!!

How can individuals who 'claim' enlightenment do so many hurtful and evil things under the name of truth? Why would Upasani Maharaja throw a rock and hit Meher Baba (Meher Baba devotees say about his abuses) in the head and cause it to bleed? If Adi Da is enlightened the how could he do all the bad things people obviously experienced in his company? If there is any 'rationalization' given it is usually in the form of a 'teaching demonstration" such as this story from the life of Shirdi Sai Baba:

"They both decided to go to Shirdi. They came from Korallah to Rahata where Tatya's Munim brought them to Shirdi. Baba abused and beat him and he was often afraid of Baba. But Dixit allayed his fears saying it was a blessing in disguise".

How does this 'square' with truth and enlightenment? It simply does not square with anything! It doesn't and it can never be 'reconciled' with our notions of enlightenment or what is good. Isn't 'ethics' a part of enlightenment? After coming out of the 'awakening period' of the 60's and 70's is surely doesn't seem to!

But yet the question still remains and exists as paradox. A paradox for some, a crucible for others and a big red flag for others!

If one were to inquire in real spiritual terms as to the condition of an enlightened being and his or her behavior, which is suppose to be all about love, light, bliss and gentleness how can "wackin" someone around or performing sexual behaviors be in any way 'consistent' with Bliss, Love and Awakening?


"oh well"

As unenlightened beings but still left with our sense of goodness and sanity we seem to be left with our own questions and logical inconsistencies. Any reasonable person who wants things to work out 'right' can not just settle for "oh, well" answers!

We don't want to be duped and 'had' by some mad man or woman! So, what's up!!!!

Since I have been around two 'crazy wise' teachers - Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche and Adi Da Samraj - for a good number of years and have heard first hand accounts of behavior that surely would never 'hold up' under the scrutiny of a 'code of ethic' review board!. I don't want to give you the impression that there is anything 'evil' or 'duplicity' with these two teachers but to try to 'square' their actions is a hard stretch for anyone trying to get the meaning of their behaviors. The only 'explanation' that I have found is it's a 'paradox". The word paradox is used to describe something that seems to be a contradiction but is in both cases true. Something is both GOOD and BAD at the same time.

"Yogi Ramsuratkumar was a ruthless taskmaster who wielded a flaming sword. To be near him with sincerity was to experience a literal internal fire that spared nothing in its path," - The Most Unusual Man in the World - Mariana Caplan.

Unfortunately our minds think in a logical and sequential manner and we can never fully come to terms with a paradox. We can never come up with final answers that will 'solve' these questions.

We can come up with 'relative' answers, based on the laws of nature but not absolute answers. If we poist a question and try and solve it by using our minds we will ultimately come to an unresolved 'pair of opposites'.

So when we look at Adi Da or any other 'realized' being, there is no way to ultimately resolve these outrageous and inappropriate behaviors, which are by all logical and common sense accounts 'hurtful' and wrong. We have ideas that enlightened masters should be like holy saints. "Saints would never have contradictory natures." They'd always be on one side; they'd always be good, morally and spiritually.


It is exactly this 'not wanting to be duped' that continually keep us in the contradictions and impossible dilemma's of our own mind. Somewhere along the line, the line to infinity, we must let go of ALL ideas and expectations and every speck of what we think ourselves to be. We must ultimately lose ourselves and that means lose all sense of what we think is RIGHT, GOOD and SANE! There is no other way to do it.

Enlightenment - in the form of 'Crazy Wise' teachers - does appear to be a kind of madness. (see Crazy Wisdom article and Transcending Madness, Chogyam Trungpa 'Crazy Wisdom') To come up with a moral certainty in this climate is .....forget it! It can't be done. Reconciling some 'enlightened' behaviors or even trying to rationalize them of is not only impossible it's futile. NO ONE can claim 'absolute knowing'. Adi Da, Meher Baba or whoever can claim that the adept is That Which is Beyond All Opposites and therefore WHATEVER that one does is 'purifying' and 'balancing' but the claim can't be either proven or denied from 'this side of infinity'.

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right doing, there is a field. I'll meet you there....Ideas, language, even the phrase "each other" doesn't make any sense. -
Mevlana Jelaluddin Rumi

Our fears (Fear and revulsion account for most of the spiritual adventure of mankind. Paradox p. 30) tell us that this kind of stuff is 'crazy' and that kind of logic can be used by manipulators to do evil and perform self justifying actions. And that IS true. We have to be aware of 'deception' and protect ourselves from falling into the spell of someone's evil intentions. But paradoxically the higher up one goes up the scale of things the less and less the things of this world can be brought with it, and that includes logic and the concepts of good and bad.

I'll end this with a quote from Adi Da himself from the introduction to The Dawn Horse Testament written by Saniel Bonder:

"The question comes down to, what it really is, is an expression of doubt. If I Am you, there does not have to be any way it works! There is not any difference between us to need something to work. So I have completely accounted for what you are asking about. It is just that My answer is not satisfying to the egoic mind. Only in the mode of Communion with Me, direct Realization in My Company, would you be satisfied by some of these descriptions. As long as there is that knot in the heart, then What is Great is not perceived, and so you look for signs, structures, to open the heart, to relieve you of yourself so you can see plainly."

Introduction to Dawn Horse Testament.

The motive force of real morality is the refusal to take on other than the form of love or to allow anything to rest in other than the form of love. It's foundation is radical understanding, but its force is love, the demand for love, the discipline of love, the radical action of love. Where there is no radical understanding there is also no morality, no love. And this absence is the condition the man of understanding finds in the world. Therefore, his moral life is difficult, requiring profound intelligence and action that is a paradox to the world. His attention is not driven to his own sacrifice or the manipulation of the world. He moves with subtle and dramatic intelligence, but the effects of his action are not the moralization of the world. He creates a moral world, an actual world of love, only where understanding also arises in the world.

There is a radical distinction to be made between the action of the man of understanding and the more or less ethical motivations of society. His action depends on understanding, whereas the social management's of mankind now depend on external matters more or less independent of true consciousness. Therefore, his action is not a pattern for an external morality. He is not a model for the world. But he is the only moral hope of the world.

My approach to the lives of those I serve has duplicated the approach I made to my own life. I have approached them on the level of their ordinary dilemmas. I have even exploited and magnified their particular patterns of experience in myself. Then I have made these exploits the ground for some insight, some understanding, and a the understanding arose I have move into more fundamental representations of their experience. By this I have hoped to move them into a radical consideration of their primary experiences and patterns.

But this manner of teaching is very exhausting and difficult for me. And very often I have devoted myself to people who are incapable or unwilling to involve themselves in a radical exercise. Therefore, my way of working with others has begun to change. I want my writing to replace my former work. Those who are capable of understanding should discover their lessons in relationship to the literature of understanding. And I will work personally only with those who have begun to work in a fundamental way.

This manner of working will enable me to create a circle of intelligent people who can manifest the light and force I have to give on the highest level. At the same time, the instrument of my writing will work on its own to serve those now and in the future who will begin the understanding of the ordinary.

Franklin Jones (Adi Da Samraj), unpublished writing, 1971.


Also see:

Not a rationalization, just a fact:

"Whatever the model of the universe in the context of which any Spiritual Adept is conceived to arise in the human plane, the teaching of the great Spiritual Adepts (whether historical or legendary) always speaks in contrast to the conventional “wisdom” (or popular culture), and (therefore) in contrast to the way of social morality for its own sake, or the conventional way..."

The Dogmas of Social Morality Versus the Esoteric Spiritual Teaching That Is At the Origin of Traditional Religions

Can the Guru Awaken Individuals

D.B. Sleeth's excellent letter on 'why' Adi Da

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