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Do
Not Casually Approach the God-Man Adi
Da
I first met Ken at the
Mountain of Attention just after sitting with Adi
Da, then later at parties for him in Marin County.
We have the same birthday.
I have always appreciated
Ken's books and praise his work as "the greatest
words on earth by a living mortal".
We all owe Ken great great
praise. He is one of my heroes, razor sharp and
holographic. But Ken is not fully enlightened and
so we must understand his limitations and delusions
as well as his brilliance. With regards to his
latest letter (August) addressing the 'Strange Case
of Adi Da", Ken's limitations and projections upon
Adi Da are only that, his projections. I can
understand how someone involved in self-creation
could make these mistakes. I have lived in a small
room with Adi Da for months and I have seen and
experienced His Brutal Simplicity and Service and
shared many of the same projections
myself.
What is Ken's actual
experience of Adi Da aside from a few darshan
occasions? He's read Adi Da's books and acknowledge
his word to be the most enlightened. But the
person? What does he know of him from actual
experience? Does he know of him only through the
negative reactions and negative stories he's heard
from individuals who could not tolerate the heat of
his company? Maybe he's read Georg Fuersteins book
"Madness and Holy Men" or other such books that
speak of these things.
Ken states repetitively
that no one cannot afford to be AT LEAST a student
of the written teaching the of Adi Da, (see
http://beezone.com for all of Ken's endorsements).
He bought with this praise a reaction most people
do to the God-Man Adi Da. It is a COMMON mistake
for those who stand far away from the fire of
"Truth". Ken speaks of Adi Da in breathtaking
superlatives, acknowledging him as The Sat Guru of
Today and then talks of his dangerous behavior. He
tries to reconciling this contradiction with
illogical paradox to bridge this "gap".
This is a very common and
traditional misunderstanding when trying to make
some sanity out of a seemingly insane situation. I
understand this reaction, Adi Da is not nice, not a
gentleman, as the title of the book states. He is
as ruthless as He is gracious.
Let me share with you a
little of my experience with this Ruthless and
Loving Master. I lived in a small room with Adi Da
for many months and I saw and EXPERIENCED His
Brutal Simplicity and Service. It took me months
and years to begin to understand His Fire and
Ferocity. The time between my initial, immature
reaction and the wave of unending gratitude, a
thousand points of view could be seized upon. Only
afterwards were the lessons understood. What had
been seen as so horrible was transform into freedom
and radiant joy.
Days with Him would begin
with the consideration of Truth and Practice, then
with brilliant humor or passionate consideration He
revealed those present to themselves, like a Priest
in a Puja, setting a fire upon each altar. Then He
would reveal Himself and baptize all in waves of
joy and Love-Bliss.
Consideration--self-understanding--Baptism. He
would let your withdrawal from love be seen is His
Sweet Fire of Love. His ruthless pursuance of your
obstructions to joy could take milliseconds or
years to comprehend, He didn't really care if it
took you years or even lifetimes.
He gave everyone
everything. But my observation was that
Heart-Servant Adi Da always was only gracious, even
at His most forceful bluntness. I never saw Him
unloving, I never saw Him unfree. I spent twelve
hours a day most days in His House, I never saw Him
in any way that was not absolute and complete
service, not a fraction of anything outside of
loving brilliance.
Unhappy with His Force, a
thousand logics may riddle you and me. I tried to
resolve the conflict between enlightenment and
unenlightenment, Crazy Wisdom and the crazy
behavior of an Adept. The logic of the mind will
come up with all kinds of hairbrained schemes to
deny the Liberator in Person. It has been my
experience and observation that dissatisfaction
with Adi Da is the same as the refusal to love and
to understand ourselves. This is what he shows us,
ourselves. I have never experienced Him as anything
but a Heart Servant, Fierce and Sweetness
Himself.
This is what people
complain about and struggle with. Some people got
fried or burned by the fire and reacted to the
intensity in logics of power. I have seen this in
myself and in all others, and it has been my
observation that those who understood themselves
the least are the ones with the most complaints.
Brilliance too bright for self possessed
individuals, this is true. Ken is correct on this
point, the Way of the Divine Person is the most
difficult understanding, where misunderstanding
surrounds it in lesser satisfactions. Do not
casually approach the God-Man Adi Da, and do not
put down an acclaimed living god-man because you
don't fully understand who he is. The need to be
right and safe in the logic of your own mind is a
delusion we all share. This logic will exactly be
the act that keeps us from The Truth.
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