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This 'White and Orange Books"
project is based on Ludwig Wittgenstein's Blue and Brown
books. The Blue & Brown Books of Wittgenstein's were
dictated as a set of notes to his student in 1934-1935. They
are short sentences and paragraphs not in any theme or
order, rather random. I have been collecting materials from
Adi Da that I find would be suitable for the same
format.
White and
Orange Books
a Beezone Project
You are not separate ego. No matter what arises—waking,
dreaming, or sleeping, no matter what arises—you are
the Witness of it, Prior to it, not bound, not separate, the
Only Condition that is Self-Evident, that is non-separate
and Indivisible. There is no separate self. And there is no
not-self. There is no not-self to dissociate from by
introversion. There is no separate self to expand by
extroversion.
Therefore,
experiences are constantly sought in the vertical planes of
experience, above, below, and altogether beyond, which will
release the being from the inherent sense of separation,
vulnerability, fear, obsession, and self possession. But
there is no release until the primal error, illusion, or lie
at the root of the heart is undone.
There is no separate self. There is no not-self. It is
simply Unshaken, Absolute Self-Condition of Reality Itself,
Self-Existing and Self-Radiant.
All separation is an illusion. It
is impossible for there to be. Any
separation. There is no such
thing. It has never
occurred. There is no separately
existing thing. Anywhere.
There is no separately existing
being. Anywhere.
There is no separate
Anything!
You must be willing to vanish completely, to be completely
obliterated. You will become capable of that sacrifice only
by degrees, because your fear is profound. The frigidity of
feeling-attention is most profound in you, because of your
experience, your adaptation. Therefore, the process of
God-Realization is a matter of time and practice.
There is not now, nor has there
ever been, nor will there ever
be individual being.
There is no such thing.
This Perfect Condition is utterly coincident with this
appearance, and need not shun it or dissociate from it, or
look to be fulfilled by it, or seek within it, or become
bound by it, or attached to it. It cannot in fact become
deluded by it. It is no different from the egoless
Indivisible Self-Condition. It is Perfect Self-Radiance,
Love-Bliss Itself, without the slightest limitation.
But in the instant of differentiation the most primitive
archetype of all knowledge appears. It appears as a simple
presumption of independent existence, consciousness, and
pleasure over against all kinds of relations or objects,
high and low
So whatever you are thinking, they are the thoughts of a
fool and a fake. Once you grasp this and accept it, it's
easy to be humble, because you have a great deal to be
humble about! And you are freely capable of observing
yourself without any blinders on.
But in order for that enjoyment to be awakened in the
individual, he must go on the great tour. He must see the
circle of life. He must see dramatized all the forms of his
conventional bondage. He must be purified in the face of
them all. And the realization of such sadhana is a
responsibility of the individual in the midst of his
conventional life. There are ways in which the Divine Siddhi
draws him to that perfect intuition, but he must actually
live the sacrifice. It is not magic. He must live it. That
demand always pertains. So the conventional dilemma of the
body is not permanently taken away by the dramas of
experience in Satsang. Eventually, the individual must
realize the Divine through the intuitive process of real
intelligence, even while alive in "the body."
Fear is your creation, not something that is happening to
you. It is the irreducible mood at the core of conventional
perception and cognition. So something greater than the
heroic overcoming of fear is demanded of the devotee. He
must know his prior Condition in God, and that alone will
obviate fear. That will destroy fear, not by mechanically
suppressing or snuffing out fear itself, but by putting him
in the Condition that is prior to that fear. When the
separate self sense and the strategic avoidance of
relationship, which are the ritual characteristics of
Narcissus, have been obviated in Understanding, he will know
even his bodily life in Truth.
What is called "self" or "ego-'I'" is not-self. It is not
real, it is not true. It is not the actual condition, even
now. There is only the Indivisible Current of Conscious
Light. There is no self or separate thing in It.
You are trying to console yourselves with what passes, what
is ordinary, and what is empty. You are parading absurd
self-imagery, pretending satisfactions that are untrue. You
live as your question. I am not your answer.
It is not that there is some kind of reality to ego which
requires you to destroy it. There is only Reality Itself,
inherently egoless and Indivisible.
How does the world get to look like intelligent design? All
you have to do is multiply two things enough times. A simple
energy opposition—appearance, shift, change,
countlessly done—is sufficient to manifest every
pattern in the universe. It looks like intelligent design
because it is infinite replication. It is a binding force of
opposites. But it is also simply an apparition, an illusion,
the thing in itself, the what it looks like, the appearance
of there being a something in itself—an objectively
existing, independently set, existing separate world of
differences, you see. It is simply something like how the
room looks to be something because you are established as a
point of view.
You must transcend not only your own apparently individual
destiny and tendencies, you must overcome it in the form of
all others. This is the meaning of compassion and love. This
is what Enlightenment expresses. There is no private karma,
there is no personal righteousness. All are involved in the
same Reality.
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ:
You feel you are the victim of events, a victim of your own
reactivity coinciding with events. You think you have to
analyze these events, analyze your reactivity, find what
there is to blame. That is not how you get purified. That is
the worldly model of life that is based on the principle of
egoity.
Dealing with life requires you to
come to the principle of responsibility, which is to
understand your own activity of ‘self’-contraction
and change your life. That is all. Past events do not
control you—you do. You are not a victim. No one is to
blame.
There is no event whatsoever that is
so mighty that you cannot transcend it and deal with
yourself. None. Not one event. Not any complex of events.
The True Heart Is the Principle in Which you inhere. Either
do It or not. But that is the Difference. That is the
'Radical' Reality-Way of the Heart.
The seeker is violent. At first he approaches the man of
understanding humbly, self-effacing, with great need. But
his questions find no ultimate solution. He becomes
frustrated and angry, and he leaves. He criticizes the man
of understanding. He asserts the forms of his own seeking.
He says the man of understanding is a seeker like himself.
You must give up
your life, the identification with this rhythm, this
contraction, this recoil that defines you. And how do you
give it up? It is impossible. It cannot be done by the one
who would do it. No one can transcend the rhythmic
contraction of the heart, which defines our consciousness,
except by the most perfect and absolute sacrifice. The way
to this perfect sacrifice is the practice I have described
in this Teaching, by which, as a discipline, you move beyond
the contracted disposition. You must move beyond fear and
sorrow and anger into the disposition of love, of radiance,
previous to any form of contraction or separation. You must
presume the radiance of happiness as a discipline in spite
of all subjective signs to, the contrary.
Change your way
of action and the subjective dimension itself will change
naturally. The born condition precedes all subjectivity. You
want to manipulate your subjectivity first - your feelings,
your thinking, your conceptions, and your
feeling-conceptions. You want to change them before you will
change your way of life. You want to be free inside before
you will love, before you act differently. You must act
differently first, and not be concerned that the feeling and
thinking aspect of the being remains full of tendencies. You
must not be concerned about them. They are just the signs of
the old way of living. You must act in love, in radiance,
with energy, with life, in all your relations, in your
disposition moment to moment, under all conditions. You will
observe in the midst of such action that the subjective
dimension is also gradually penetrated and transformed. Its
negativity, its reactivity, becomes unnecessary and
ultimately obsolete by virtue of your different action.
You either change your action or you do not. You must begin
to do it. There is nothing more that can be said, nothing
more convincing than that. You simply must begin to do
it............
Now you are waiting for your insides to change first. They
are the last to change! Your action must change
first.
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: But what is your motive? The One
Contemplated is the same, regardless of the level or degree
or kind of Realization. It is the one who Contemplates who
makes the difference—and "difference" is what is made.
So what is your motive? What are you looking toward?
Improvements in gross embodiment? Evolution into other
planes? Or "Divine Translation"?
DEVOTEE: Just You. I have no
interest in the rest.
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: Nonsense!
[Laughter.] There is a motive. It must be
discovered. To discover it is fundamental to sadhana. There
is not only the Contemplation. There is the transcendence of
self by means of Contemplation. This self that is to be
transcended is a design. It is a motive. It is an effort.
This Maya cannot be comprehended, as it has been said in the
Great Tradition of humankind. It is a paradox. It is a
plastic. It is always space-time. It is always
psycho-physical. It is by nature incomprehensible and
dreamlike. You cannot win unless you transcend it. But to
transcend it you must transcend yourself.
If you see Me in some visionary sense, or I say something
and you hear it without My being physically there, well that
is interesting. Examine that phenomena and feel everything
about it. On the other hand, do not identify the experience
with Me. I am not the experience. At most it is an effect of
My Presence. I am simply My Presence, My Person
Those who are Awakening from the dead ends of this world may
find their Help by serving my Heart, and by renouncing all
occupations that are not utterly turned into whole bodily
Communion with God.
I remain, the experience does not—it is gone. Just to
say you have had it, you already know it is gone. It
happened, and it is past. In fact, you could not have
perceived it until it was already past, because it takes
time for it to be generated as an experience— even just
a brief moment of time, you could say—but nonetheless,
it is in time, of time, of self. It is a permutation of the
body-mind, as well as some kind of evidence of My Person,
perhaps, or at least evidence of your response to Me.
All these phenomena are of interest. They may and should be
hopefully inspiring to your practice, but they are not, in
and of themselves, to be identified with Me. So I do not
care what I said in your dream, you see. That is not the
point. The point is I said it, not what I said. Do not
imagine that your vision of Me in a dream is Me. You will be
looking for Me in your dreams from that time on, trying to
see Me again. Whereas in the moments you are not seeing Me
in your dreams, I am still here—so I am not in the form
of some experience.
If you cannot know yourself in the form of absolutely
everybody, including the worst characters you have every
heard about, thought about, read about—if you cannot
understand that that is your potential, too, then you do not
understand anything about yourself. That does not mean "go
ahead and do it" — this kind of knowledge comes through
a profound process in which there is the transcending of it.
Where there is Perfect Transcendence, there is a perfect
summation ofthe worst character who ever lived—and in
some sense, the best, perhaps—but none of it makes any
difference anymore. It is all cancelled. The pluses and
minuses add up to zero, and only the Outshining
“Brightness” remains
To practice is to suffer, but it is not egoic suffering. It
is that suffering associated with the transcending of
egoity. Therefore, it is not called ‘suffering’.
It is called ‘tapas’. It is called ‘the
ordeal of practice’. It is called
‘renunciation’. It is called
‘discipline’. It is necessary! That is it. That is
the substance of change! That is the alchemy of change. That
is the fire on the pot. Everything must be thrown into it.
Truth was before you thought about it. When you have an
answer, you do not have truth. You regenerate the
questioning commonly. You repeat the self-reference and go
on as you were.
The first great crisis of human existence is the observation
of the tentative, minimal, and always temporary association
between life and Happiness—and how the mortal and
limited nature of embodiment itself makes the search for
Happiness both a necessary and a futile enterprise. I Argue
that Lesson, so that you may become serious, understand your
un-Happiness, and begin the Way of Happiness Itself.
The second great crisis of life is
this process of serious understanding of un-Happiness and
conversion to the Way of Happiness (rather than the futile
search for Happiness). Such understanding is what I Call
‘hearing’, and such conversion is what I Call
‘seeing’. It is only when such hearing and seeing
prevail that the practice of the Way can begin.
There is no final decision that can be made by the ego. The
ego cannot make final decisions, because it is two and not
one relative to everything. Everything is yes and no, yes or
no, yes and no both, yes and no each one sometimes, yes and
no at war with one another.
Everything appears on it as a screen, everything just
passes.
There is only one Siddhi or transforming Spiritual Power
active in this work, and that Siddhi is God, the Power of
the Divine Person. It is not a secondary siddhi, not magic,
not a mere influence. Only the Divine is active in this
work. The Lord is the fundamental condition communicated in
Satsang with the Man of Understanding. From the beginning,
not merely at the end, Truth is the condition of this
process. It is pressed on devotees with more and more
intensity, always to the degree which is just a little bit
beyond their preferred tolerance.
I cannot merely turn off the switch and then you are all
relieved of your destiny. I can guide you. I can lead you
into Communion with Me and in the process of Realization. I
can effect things
While you are all doing what you do constantly, I am working
in the midst of it and effecting it as I do. Yet, it is
still something to be transcended. This is not utopia. I
can’t make it utopia. It does not have that potential.
That is not what it is about.
Follow Me. Be drawn to Me, Liberated
from your confinement to the pattern, the weave of
self-contraction, and Realize That Which Transcends this
pattern you call life. It seems to depend on something that
is really nothing but an illusion. It is your own design,
your own rug, and that is what I am pulling out from under
you. You keep weaving. I keep pulling.
Your single obligation is at the heart. It is in your
feeling that you become self-possessed, that you betray the
Living God and all your relations, that you are unhappy. It
is in your feeling that fear, sorrow, anger, doubt, shame,
lust, and all obsessions are arising. Therefore, it is in
your feeling alone that you will be healed.
Everything is conflict and competition. Everyone is at war
with everybody else. Wherever there is even very ordinary
difference, people make so much of it these days that it
becomes the basis for potentially even global conflict. It
is insanity! Truly, it is insanity! It is inflaming the
entire world.
When human life is detached from the Source and from the
context of relatedness in life, aberrations come. That is
essentially how it happens. "No Source" means no
relatedness, no cooperation, no guidance, no
Source-Principle presented, no Divine Reality
This time of absolutism, of neighborhood wars, people
absolutize their self-imagery and enter into conflict and
differentiation and dominance of others. It is a terribly
dangerous situation, and it has got to be stopped -- not
stopped by force, except stopped by the force of Truth, just
that. That is the only measure.
What you have on your mind is boring and unsatisfactory.
Your thoughts and your self-manipulations are fruitless and
disheartening, regardless of their content. To be fallen
upon by the Self-Evident Divine "Brightness" is the only
Satisfaction. It is the only Cure for doubt and fear and all
the sorrow of all of this
I am waiting for you. I have been waiting for You Eternally.
My Fulfillment is the very world. But I am not heard. My
gestures are unseen. The Powers of My Delight are not
enjoyed. All things depend upon your visit. Where are you?
Fundamentally, My Work with everyone is silent.
Fundamentally, the circumstance of being in My Company,
therefore, is silent.
With the Buddhist I say nothing. With the Hindus I say
"God", With the theists I say "the Lord", In and as myself,
I say....nothing.
Spiritual or real life is simply the ability or
consciousness to handle, obviate and dissolve illusion and
its effects at any moment. To be without such ability or
consciousness is to be involved in a random or at best
arbitrarily controlled adventure in illusion and its effects
(extensions).
At any moment avoidance is primarily in the form of
identification, differentation or desire, and secondarily
(effectively) in the remaining two. but these three account
entirely for all forms of avoidance.
Where there is understanding I am the only One who appears
and speaks. Where there is no understanding there is only
all of you, the dilemma of many births and searches.
Understand and you are the one who lives.
The world is a form or dimension of Consciousness. It is not
a solid something that exists outside of Consciousness. This
is a Conscious dimension. All of this exists in the Divine
Consciousness, which is also your own Consciousness, Nature,
and Condition. So the Conscious Universe also contains
memory in its midst. It includes all the qualities like
those of the human psyche, as well as transcendent
qualities, and lesser, dependent qualities
Experience is always a form of exclusion and limitation
It should be clear that it is not by working on perceptions
or the contents of your mind that you undo that assumed
limitation. It is only through a radical process in which
that assumption and all its extensions are confounded, in
which the separate self sense is dissolved, and the
conscious principle falls into the intuition of the Divine
Our thinking is a convention, the forms of all our
perceptions are conventional, all our cognitions and
communications are conventional. They are all based on the
conventional model of the psycho-physical "entity." They are
ways of making use of this natural vehicle, this ordinary
condition, and making it serve the aspects of existence to
which we are experientially awake. But, apart from that, the
conventions and their supportive model (the "ego" or
"entity") have no value
The conventional model of life that we communicate to one
another is also something to which we glibly refer. We
glibly pass it on to one another as if it were real. We talk
about "me" and "you" and "the world" and "the universe" and
"the air we breathe" and "going to work" and all of that. We
just smack the conventional concepts about, and that's it.
As if all of that had anything to do with anything we had
ever perceived, ever truly known, even by experience. In
fact we have never perceived and known any such things.
The seeker operates within the structures of the
conventional model to find God. If you try to overcome your
bondage and become free, you never will. You will just
become more and more subtly aware of how complicated it is,
or else resort to some consoling illusion or artifice whose
"significance" is liberation to you. You will be trying to
make this and that vanish, to purify this piece of it, and
then that piece of it. Eventually, you could go mad trying
to do it that way. And the seeker is a kind of madman
The subject or conscious actor is not more the presence of
reality than the objects upon which he appears to act. all
these things are "witnessed" in reality, and one who
embraces any part or his own or as reality itself has wedded
himself to dilemmas and the whole adventure of avoidance.
It is not necessary or even possible for you to "believe" in
God or know the Character of the Divine Person. But if you
can see that you do not exist by your own creature power,
and if you can begin to consider the alignment of your life
with the unspeakable Source or Condition that is truly
responsible for your existence, then you can do the sadhana
or spiritual practice of Communion with God.
The media of the life of a man of understanding are not
important...sainthood or libertine...He can not be read
according to his forms...to view him in terms of his forms
is to be trapped in visions of paradoxes, contradictions and
affronts.
But as My devotee you're here to exercise your
discrimination, you see. "What is fruitful, what is
Happiness, what is the Way that supports it, that serves its
Realization? Is this a wrong course or right course? Is this
distraction, is this something to follow?" Its always
discrimination, always a profound sensitivity to the
self-contraction and its effects, and the whole mechanism of
bondage. Sensitivity to all that is fundamental to the Way
of the Heart.
You feel with your head. You stop thinking. You stop
crumpling the mid-brain.
When you feel with your head, You don't concentrate! When
you are just being happy, You do not do anything like that.
The navel relaxes. All the yogic signs appear, The energies
find their proper place.
The heart must be open, Radiant. It is the principle Of the
whole body's radiance. Why isn't the heart radiant? Why
isn't it open, Because of this conflict With the body, With
its vital form, With its desiring.
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